28 Feb The Fertilization Of My Becoming ∞

Human. Free falling in the trust…

When the flow gets interrupted, it sends me deep into the practice. Thank you sweet cosmic speed bump… I am trying to cultivate a variety of authentic ways to appreciate you. It is hard… My human layers want the experience of certainty and yet I am being called into pulling my attention back to the only thing that IS certain… The Presence that animates all things. Oh to anchor in the ever expanding good and to invest ALL that I AM, in the only certain thing … Love, Joy, Well Being, Creativity, Harmony, Genius…

Why must the Time and Space ingredients be so intoxicating? Why must I be filled with such desire? Why must I be so convinced of my separateness from that which I am chasing? Why AM I in such a romance with chasing something that is already present? Ah me-ism!! It seems that I signed up for this ride! To come from Eternity into Time and unfold in a story, feeling into Life’s textures and timings, the withs and withouts… duality in all It’s deliciousness and bitterness.

As the pain escalates, my Higher self smiles at the opportunity to pull all the scattered pieces back into Truth! It giggles as I bang around in the human experience… It rejoices in my satori! In my sudden remembrance! In my glorious home coming! Such is the gift in the grit! The fertilization of my becoming. I want to thank you… but I am busy being hurt by Reality’s design right now. So get out of my way while I trip over you… my sweet delusion. I know you are already here… but I am going to look for you anyway. ~Kat Dawes~ www.nowism.tv